We have.....kittens.

So, I took in another cat, oh about 6 months ago. This really wasn't that big of a deal because all of our other cats had started disappearing. I tried to keep her in the house all the time, in case coyotes were about, but she got outside once – JUST ONCE!!! Now I have 7 cats!!!!!! The kittens are beautiful but if you know anyone that wants one let me know, yes I'm serious. They are truly adorable but why does my cat have to be the rare one that has more than 4 kittens at once.

True Love

To be able to see true love is a rare thing. It is usually something that is only felt and that is very hard to let somebody see. When that love can be felt by so many people and can actually be tangibly seen, it is truly amazing. That happened today at Cornerstone FWB Church. An amazing man died a few days ago and the love that this church had for him and has for each other was not only felt but also seen by everyone that entered that church today. I knew already that this church was an amazing place to be, even though we haven't been there for long, but the power and the love that they showed today was truly amazing. Only God can create this kind of love but the people also have to be in his will and willing before he can bestow it.
I would not be comfortable trying to explain how great a person he was because I would not want to diminish what he meant to all of those that he was so close to. I cannot know how much he meant to them but I can imagine and I feel that they are the ones that have the right to talk about what a great man he was. I can however say that from the minute you met Jesse you knew that God was the most important thing in his life. I know that the class that he was part of and which held by-far the closest place in his heart is in my prayers, as they are in the prayers of everyone at the church. This church is an amazing FAMILY to be a part of.

Guys and their toys!

I have the proof!!! Guys do not have to be taught to be territorial over their "toys". So what do they do when you threaten their "toys"? Apparently my youngest sleeps on top of it to protect it.

The story: He had pushed this truck, that he bought with his birthday money, all over the house, he had woke up his daddy a few times(and this is not easy to do) and he had pretty much driven me crazy with it. So I threatened to put it outside for him to play with when it gets warmer. So now he is in full on protect mode. He is not letting the thing out of his sight and even tried to sleep on it that first night. Now of course I could take it from him or even sneak it away while he is sleeping but I am having so much fun watching him "protect" his toy. I can just hear his future wife saying "God what did your mom do to you – she ruined you!" So as much as they try to blame their mothers for everything, sorry but I have proof this is one thing you can't blame your mom for guys – apparently it's in your genes. Don't worry we love ya anyway!!!!!!!!!

One of the possible rants I mentioned.

I am apparently experiencing a huge pet peeve moment today. It has bothered me for a while but it is eating at me today. How do people become so rude and crude? What has happen to our feelings of loyalty and our commitment to family and friends? Admittedly I am not anywhere close to perfect, I am horrible with people but it is because I am so bashful not because I have no morals. Yes, I have made my mistakes and had my moments where my judgment lapsed but not on a daily basis. How do you turn your back on people that you have claimed to love and treat them with complete disrespect? How do you look at someone that you know is hurting or in need and not care? Is there no decency left in your heart? I understand if a person has hurt you or put you in a place you didn't need to be repeatedly that you may need to cut them out of your life but you can do that without running your mouth or just flat out being disrespectful (trust me I've had to do it). If they were truly in need though I would still be there for them. Why do we have to be so critical of each other? There are things that I understand it may be hard to live with but we are so quick anymore to say that we can't live with someone over the pettiest things. So quick to say I hate that person because they do this or that. When really those are not that big of a deal and we know it. Why can't we just give each other a little leniency and a little respect? Is it really that difficult to just turn the other cheek and let it go? It isn't that hard, it is possible; we are just all so selfish and self-involved that we don't feel the need to. As a last note there is one more thing worth saying, you can kill love but it is not as easy as some people like to pretend. You can not just turn it off, it's still in there and everyone knows it and every mean thing you do just proves it!!!!

My heart is broken

We had to walk away from our church. The church where I was raised. The church where we were married. The church that at one point meant everything to us. I don't understand why things happen like they do but I'm sure God has a new plan for us. How people can be so cruel and why others can be so oblivious to their cruelty is beyond my understanding. I hope this will bring some closure to this troubled part of our lives, finally. Hopefully she will now drop it all and just let us live in peace. That is what we want. Seperation from all of the trouble and drama, that is how this whole thing got started with us asking to just be left alone. So now we leave everything that we have known in order to get that peace. I hope this works, we know it is God's will so at some point it will all be okay.

Sometimes you've got to wonder.....?

Sometimes you've got to wonder if people are really as oblivious as they seem to the ways that they affect other people. Do you really not know that the things you say can hurt other people, make them feel unloved or even change their lives forever? I know that I was raised to understand that my words not just my actions had consequences. As Christians we are not suppose to push people further down, we are suppose to lift them up!! How do so many Christians miss this part of God's teachings? Yet still wonder why Christians have such a bad reputation and why they can't get people to come to church. They are ruining not only their witness but also the witness of those they are talking about. Truth or lies, you have still made the person you were talking to have doubts about the person you were talking about. Another thing, does anyone really still believe that around here you can talk about someone without it getting back to them? Please tell me you aren't that stupid. Ohh…. You wanted me to know didn't you? Now that makes sense. Well congrats!! It worked. If I had any doubts that I was doing the wrong thing they are now gone. Thank You for making me see clearly. Love is the center of all of God's teachings. We must love one another; you accuse us of not having love in our hearts but tell me WHERE IS YOUR LOVE?? Do you really have any idea what happened? No, you know one side of it, the side you have chosen to accept as the gospel. You don't know the history or the circumstances; you don't know the reasoning behind what we did. Why don't you? We kept our mouths shut, as everyone involved should have. When you have things to cover up though you need to make sure your side is heard and believed. You need to make sure that the other side is not believed if it ever does come out. Are you not mature enough as Christians to see that trap, to see when you are being manipulated or to feel the spirit of God? It truly breaks my heart to know that something I have worked so hard at all of my life can be taken away so easily. Sometimes you've got to wonder if people really even care.

So mad and yet SO Proud!

I have been so mad at my son all weekend but at the same time I am bursting with pride. They take tests at school called WEST tests (for you older folks like me they are like our CTBS tests were) and they got the results back this week from last years tests. The results come in levels- Novice, Partial Mastery, Mastery, Above Mastery and Distinguished- and just to put the levels into prespective, my daughter who makes almost straight A's got 3 Mastery and 1 Above Mastery. So my son who makes C's in school and swears that he is doing his best, that he just can't concentrate for long periods of time - what does he get on a test that requires you to sit for hours and fill in dots? 3 Above Mastery and 1 Distinguished!!!! Excuse me? What did you say? I don't think so. Yes he is a friggin' smart butt. Hubby says I can't start pushing him or he will just back off completely. So what am I suppose to do? My friends suggest rewarding him, yes that is probably why he did good on the tests(they are taking the ones that got All Mastery and above on a trip) but should I have to reward him to get him to do good. Shouldn't that be a requirement? I am so frustrated but at the same time I am so proud. We knew that he had a brilliant mind, he just didn't seem capable of applying it. So how do I get him to apply it to his everyday work? I have no idea but I will find a way.