I don't want to lose my 30's

I have made a few decisions lately. Not really what you would call huge decisions, just simple things really but to me they are probably everything. I have talked with friends before about how hard it is for us to just relax and enjoy our lives and then the other day I read a blog by a woman who talked of losing that ability to be spontaneous when she was in her thirties and then waking up and getting that spark back when she was in her 40's. I don't want to lose my 30's, I want to enjoy them. What is it about this decade that scares us all so much. People get accused of going through their mid-life crisis in their 40's but I think it's really that they just come to their senses. They realize that all of that "getting ahead" crap is just that - CRAP!! Our 30's bring us so much responsibility and the feeling that we must be grown-up and in charge. Why can't we be these things without forsaking everything else. I have decided that I'm not going to let that rule my life anymore. I can be a responsible adult without that being my whole life. I'm giving up all of those things that I feel obligated to do and feel that I should know how to do or be able to do. I do not have to know how to so, I do not have to do everything that everyone asks me to and I don't have to feel bad for having fun with my kids and letting everything else go. I did good with this when they were littler but as they get bigger and I get older that seems to get harder and harder. Like I said not what you would call a huge decision but to me it means not losing my 30's.

A few things I'm not worrying about anymore:

Learning to sew - I love to crochet, it calms me but I have always felt the need to be able to sew. I would love to be able to make a beautiful quilt but the problem is I. don't. like. to. sew!!!! So why should I? I will never be the perfect little homemaker so why keep trying.

Having a spotless house - My house has never been spotless and will never be so I refuse to keep feeling bad about it. Life will go on.

Doing everything asked of me - I don't have to be the do everything mom, the PTO mom or the team mom. I just have to be Mom to my kids. Thank You.

#67 and #68

I am giving up on #67 and 68. I will replace them with something when I can decide on what but I have made a few decisions lately and they have to go. I will post a more detailed post about the "decisions" later but this is one of those things that I felt like I should do, should be able to do but that I don't really get enjoyment out of. So they must go.

Prayer for Patrick

A man, Patrick McNeely, from my area was involved in a very bad motorcycle accident on Saturday Night. He is in the Trauma Unit at a local hospital. The Initial report was that he had 2 blood clots on his brain, that either his spine or back was broken, that he had no pain from the waist down, that he had alot of facial trauma and that he had asparated and was unable to breath on his own. I know it is hard to care about someone that you don't really know but I wanted to let as many people as I could know about this. I don't know him personally but it seems that he is great person from all accounts and I wanted to have as many people thinking about him and praying for him as is possible. They have created a blog to keep everyone aprised of his condition at http://prayforpatrick.blogspot.com/. So please keep him in your thoughts and prayers and remember his family. Think about what it would be like if this were your son or brother and act accordingly.

Our Family History

Part 4:Enter Jo stage Left

You know how sometimes you zig left and zag right when it comes to decisions in your life. That's the pattern I had taken with deciding wether or not to have a second kid. Just when I had zigged left and decide it just wasn't time...I was pregnant. Of the four kids this was the only time I was big and pregnant in the summer, thankfully. I went outside very little, it was just too miserable. I spent a lot of time in the hospital too. I kept dehydrating (I would guess the heat helped on that part) which would bring on false contractions and UTI's. I hate being pregnant, I've heard so many women talk about how much they love it but I just can't agree. I honestly hate it. Don't get me wrong, I love feeling the baby kick and grow but I hate all of the things that go with it. I am always severely ill and after falling when I was pregnant with Audrey my hip is always messed up when I'm pregnant. It is just a miserable time for me. All wasn't lost though, Audrey was sleeping about 12 hours during the night and taking a nice nap during the day so I wasn't overly exhausted (yet, we saved that for later). Needless to say by the time I gave birth I was beyond ready. It was once again a very easy delivery, even easier this time because they knew how far I would go on my own and I didn't have to wait a day for them to decide to induce me, that was step one not ten. I was so nervous when Audrey was born that I don't really remember getting to enjoy those moments. Now that I was a little more prepared and experienced it was a much more enjoyable situation. He was so tiny and so perfect.

(I will insert his birth picture here as soon as I get it scanned into the computer)

Next- Part 5:Drew should love Roller Coasters.

Random Abandon

We ate at Hardee's the other day and they were exceptionally slow. We overheard them talking about how some people hadn't showed up, there was only 1 person working back in the kitchen and of the 5 or 6 people working out front none of them knew how to do anything in the kitchen. We were talking about how they shouldn't hire these people that weren't willing to train to do everything. About that time our darling little 6 yr. old chimed in "Yeah but they probably get paid more." From the mouth of babes is all I can say.

Foot Fashions

22 days till school starts!! 14 days till volleyball starts! Then basketball is next. Time for a whole new kind of stress.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
LW-188.2
CW-191(New WiiFit weight, I weigh the same on my scale 188.3)
GW-160

I exercised this week. More than I have in a long time. I feel better but it didn't help much with the weight. I'm being patient and biding my time till the kids go back to school.
On a different note - We got a WiiFit this week. I'm adjusting my CW to match what it now says. It is a little more than the scale was weighing me at but that's alright. I'm just going to start from there for next week. I must say, so far, I love the WiiFit. No, it's not that great on the cardiovasular side but I think it is going to be great for toning and strengthening. I've always wanted to learn some Yoga and it seems to be really good on that front. (I'll let you know what I think of it after I've used it a little more.)It is a little depressing though. It labeled me as obese and keeps telling me how unbalanced, unflexible and unfit I am. I think shutting it up will give me good motivation though.

How to Torture your Mother.

I haven't posted for a few days but I really do have a good reason. Have you tried school shopping for 4 children? It is not an easy task and we still aren't finished. I took 2 of them Monday, one yesterday and then we all went today and shopped for the fourth kid plus a few things for the other ones. This is one of the things that I hate about my kids getting older, they actually have opinions and want to pick things out for themselves. How bad does that suck? Trust me, it sucks big!! How dare they have their own tastes!!! That is just rude. So as you see I have been quite busy. Busy being tortured.