MRI's, Kittens and Bears! Oh My!!

Have a few different things to mention so where to start….. Audrey made it through her MRI with flying colors. They did have to redo the last set because her knee started twitching but that was no big deal. She did really well, way better than I thought she would considering how nervous she was. Now we just have to wait to hear the results from the surgeon next week. I've quit worrying about it and left it all up to God. What will be, will be.
On to other things….Apparently we had a bear last night, the first sighting of the season. He tried his best to get inside the Blazer, not sure why though because it has been setting there for months in need of being fixed (now that's a whole other story). The picture is not great; if you actually see it you can see where he pushed his nose up against the glass.

A short update on the kittens too. They are getting so big and are all over the place. Most of them are using the litter box already and a few are starting to try to eat. It's going to be hard to get rid of any of them let along all of them. Mike says though (and anyone who knows us well will know what a big deal this is) that HE is getting ME a dog. I am by heart a dog person, I love them and would love to have one now that all the kids will be in school but……. I CANNOT house train a dog. I have tried so many times and it never works for me. My guess would be that it is my laziness but I'm hoping that if he gets the dog for me that I will try a little harder. We'll see I guess, if he even gets it lol.

OCD:Who knew?

Actually, he called it an OCD lesion. It stands for something fancy that I can't remember. I just found the diagnosis a bit amusing because I am always telling her she is a little crazy. LOL
For those of you who know me well this part will be redundant but oh well. Sorry about that.
Audrey had a severe infection in her leg about a year and a half ago. It was called cellulitis (which is a fancy word for an infection just underneath the skin surface) and turned out to be a staff infection. She was in the hospital for 3 days, couldn't walk for a few weeks and was on crutches for a little over a month. You would have had to see the leg to understand how bad it was; it ended up being about 3 times its normal size. They finally had to make an incision and drain the leg to get it to heal and she ended up having to have the roots of her big toenail cut out on that foot to clear up the infection there. She has had trouble with the knee on that leg ever since but the swelling and pain would come and go. Getting her to the doctor while it was actually swollen and hurting was very difficult. It took about a year but I finally managed to get him to see that there was a problem. He did x-rays and they came back with a report of being fine. So he had her wear a brace for a while and it has helped but as soon as she doesn't wear it we are back to square one.
Now to the present, He decided there was nothing else he could do so he referred her to a specialist. We go in, he glances at the x-rays, asks a few questions, checks her knee out a little and says he really doesn't see anything. I think Oh Great!!! So I just start talking and telling him every little thing I can think of about how it affects her, what hurts her and what doesn't and apparently he had a "light bulb" moment. He started checking her knee in a different way and looking for certain things and then went to actually look at the x-rays. Sure enough there it is big as day, how the person that read them didn't see it the doctor can't seem to fathom. She has a "pothole" of cartilage gone on the back side of her knee cap. Now whether it is from the infection or she injured it and didn't know it or it is going to be some type of disorder she has we do not know and may never know.
She goes for an MRI Friday to see just how bad it really is and we will go from there with her treatment but there is a possibility that she will have to have surgery. It has taken me a week to be able to set down and write about it because it upsets me to think about it. She is still young enough that it may be able to heal itself but we will have to see. She is really anxious about the MRI and will be truly crushed if she can not play volleyball when the season starts next year. I am trusting in God that everything will be okay though and even if she has to have surgery and can't do the things that she loves I know that God has a reason for it. Everyone just keep her in your thoughts and prayers.

We have.....kittens.

So, I took in another cat, oh about 6 months ago. This really wasn't that big of a deal because all of our other cats had started disappearing. I tried to keep her in the house all the time, in case coyotes were about, but she got outside once – JUST ONCE!!! Now I have 7 cats!!!!!! The kittens are beautiful but if you know anyone that wants one let me know, yes I'm serious. They are truly adorable but why does my cat have to be the rare one that has more than 4 kittens at once.

True Love

To be able to see true love is a rare thing. It is usually something that is only felt and that is very hard to let somebody see. When that love can be felt by so many people and can actually be tangibly seen, it is truly amazing. That happened today at Cornerstone FWB Church. An amazing man died a few days ago and the love that this church had for him and has for each other was not only felt but also seen by everyone that entered that church today. I knew already that this church was an amazing place to be, even though we haven't been there for long, but the power and the love that they showed today was truly amazing. Only God can create this kind of love but the people also have to be in his will and willing before he can bestow it.
I would not be comfortable trying to explain how great a person he was because I would not want to diminish what he meant to all of those that he was so close to. I cannot know how much he meant to them but I can imagine and I feel that they are the ones that have the right to talk about what a great man he was. I can however say that from the minute you met Jesse you knew that God was the most important thing in his life. I know that the class that he was part of and which held by-far the closest place in his heart is in my prayers, as they are in the prayers of everyone at the church. This church is an amazing FAMILY to be a part of.

Guys and their toys!

I have the proof!!! Guys do not have to be taught to be territorial over their "toys". So what do they do when you threaten their "toys"? Apparently my youngest sleeps on top of it to protect it.

The story: He had pushed this truck, that he bought with his birthday money, all over the house, he had woke up his daddy a few times(and this is not easy to do) and he had pretty much driven me crazy with it. So I threatened to put it outside for him to play with when it gets warmer. So now he is in full on protect mode. He is not letting the thing out of his sight and even tried to sleep on it that first night. Now of course I could take it from him or even sneak it away while he is sleeping but I am having so much fun watching him "protect" his toy. I can just hear his future wife saying "God what did your mom do to you – she ruined you!" So as much as they try to blame their mothers for everything, sorry but I have proof this is one thing you can't blame your mom for guys – apparently it's in your genes. Don't worry we love ya anyway!!!!!!!!!

One of the possible rants I mentioned.

I am apparently experiencing a huge pet peeve moment today. It has bothered me for a while but it is eating at me today. How do people become so rude and crude? What has happen to our feelings of loyalty and our commitment to family and friends? Admittedly I am not anywhere close to perfect, I am horrible with people but it is because I am so bashful not because I have no morals. Yes, I have made my mistakes and had my moments where my judgment lapsed but not on a daily basis. How do you turn your back on people that you have claimed to love and treat them with complete disrespect? How do you look at someone that you know is hurting or in need and not care? Is there no decency left in your heart? I understand if a person has hurt you or put you in a place you didn't need to be repeatedly that you may need to cut them out of your life but you can do that without running your mouth or just flat out being disrespectful (trust me I've had to do it). If they were truly in need though I would still be there for them. Why do we have to be so critical of each other? There are things that I understand it may be hard to live with but we are so quick anymore to say that we can't live with someone over the pettiest things. So quick to say I hate that person because they do this or that. When really those are not that big of a deal and we know it. Why can't we just give each other a little leniency and a little respect? Is it really that difficult to just turn the other cheek and let it go? It isn't that hard, it is possible; we are just all so selfish and self-involved that we don't feel the need to. As a last note there is one more thing worth saying, you can kill love but it is not as easy as some people like to pretend. You can not just turn it off, it's still in there and everyone knows it and every mean thing you do just proves it!!!!

My heart is broken

We had to walk away from our church. The church where I was raised. The church where we were married. The church that at one point meant everything to us. I don't understand why things happen like they do but I'm sure God has a new plan for us. How people can be so cruel and why others can be so oblivious to their cruelty is beyond my understanding. I hope this will bring some closure to this troubled part of our lives, finally. Hopefully she will now drop it all and just let us live in peace. That is what we want. Seperation from all of the trouble and drama, that is how this whole thing got started with us asking to just be left alone. So now we leave everything that we have known in order to get that peace. I hope this works, we know it is God's will so at some point it will all be okay.