I tell myself all the time that I have to get back to this, that I have to make the time and that I need to make space in my life for the things that I love. Yet, it never happens. You would think that after 20 years of marriage and almost 18 years of being a Mom I would have somehow figured it out by now. You'd be wrong. I don't know how all of those perfect people that I see out there do it. I will never have it all together I suppose. I'm willing to accept my fate. That doesn't mean I have to quit trying. If I only get to post once a year, oh well, at least I managed that.
At this point in my life I am the mother of three teenagers one of whom is about to be an adult herself (yes I said three)(and no I don't look old enough, Thanks). I thought as they grew up that it would get easier and that the burden on my time would be less. I could make this true but I can't bring myself to do it. Yes, they are big enough to do a lot of things for themselves and they don't NEED me as much but thank goodness they still WANT my time. I love spending time with them. I love hanging out with my daughter just talking. I love playing video games with my boys. Not to sound cliche but someday soon I know that they will all be gone. Then I will have all the time I need for myself. For now, I continue to try to figure out how to juggle it all and still have time for myself.