I lost Audrey's birth certificate so of course I have turned this house upside down looking for it. I didn't find her birth certificate but I found something a lot better and the timing was unbelievable. Audrey started Middle School yesterday and it just blows me away that she is actually that old so when I stumbled across the poem I wrote when I was pregnant with her - well lets just say God works in mysterious ways. As a disclaimer before I post this poem I will remind you that I was 17 and thought that I owned the world (boy to feel like that again). So just keep that in mind when reading this.
The love that brought you here
Could not possibly disappear
In our minds, of course, there's fear
But in our hearts there's only cheer
We dreamed of you everyday
Even before you were on your way
So now once you arrive
Our love can only thrive
You will ask for little, while you are small
We'll be thrilled to see you crawl
Then one day you will be grown
Into a new world we will all be thrown
So we want to take time to do it right
To listen to your prayers every night
To take away some of the strife
To give support throughout your life
If you feel that we fail in anyway
Or that from the truth we somehow stray
Don't be afraid to let us know
Just do it in a way that your love will show
Then when your grown and feel too old
For us to love or kiss and hold
Just remember our love is always here
Even when you feel it's nowhere near
Now tell me that wasn't God's timing. It's so easy to forget sometimes what our purpose is in our kids lives and to lose sight of what is really important. As long as they know that we love them everything else will fall into place. You can't always be your childs friend so they need to know that mommy and daddy are strong and will always be there, when they need a true friend.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Friday, August 18, 2006
So I started going through pics and scanning them into the computer today. I can't even begin to count how many times I have heard people joke about how with the first kid you go all out but then it starts getting old, well its true. My poor baby has almost no pictures of him. I guess it just gets too time consuming when you have 4 kids to take care of but that makes it no less sad. It is ridiculous and pathetic. I feel like a horrible mother. Time to break out the camera and start following him everywhere he goes. I'm sure he'll love that.
Wednesday, August 9, 2006
Want to make yourself feel old? Have kids!! It may not happen right away but eventually it does. My kids are getting so big and mature. I have to worry about things that when they were babies I never thought about being in the future. When they are born its all cuteness, yes its tough at times but I'm here to tell you guys it only gets harder. The things you have to worry about are such bigger issues than am I feeding them the right things or does his diaper need changed. Its just surreal to think that he is 9 and Audrey is getting ready to start Middle School. Its actually quite depressing because for as much time as I didn't think about puberty or them dating when they were babies I spend that time now thinking about the fact that they will soon be graduating HS and going on with their lives. Yet at the same time I just keep thinking that one day soon I will be able to take a bath without someone standing at the door screaming "Mommmmy!!".
Tuesday, August 8, 2006
Today is one of those days that I have to wonder just how crazy one woman can become. I love my kids and would do anything to make them happy, sooo....... Jo got a turtle for his birthday. Guess who has done all the work so far. I have to admit, I like him. He's pretty cool but how many pets do we have now. Momma's got to learn to say NO when it comes to pets. We now have 2 dogs(1 out, 1 in), 2 cats(both out), a hamster and (if you count the feeder fish) 18 fish. How many of these do you think are strays or animals that someone else didn't want? Only 2 of them are not. The puppy who stays inside and now the turtle. What in the world is wrong with me???? I need a 12 step program for this. Yet already the kids are discussing what kind of pet Matt should get for his Bday in Dec. What's a mom suppose to do? After all it will be his 5th Bday, how can I say No to that?????
Monday, August 7, 2006
are the ties that bind. Why do people think that just because they are your family they can decide what should and shouldn't happen in your life? It's not up to our family to tell us who we can and can't be friends with and support. I don't mean my hubby and kids, they are directly affected by my friends and that I understand. I mean the rest of the family, his and mine. Just because you are not happy with someone doesn't mean I can't have a relationship with them. We've gone through this before, what will you do for me? They will be there for me when you won't. That's the truth!!! I don't have to take sides, you shouldn't try to make me. There is this comfortable in between. Yes, I have my opinion of who's right and who's wrong but thats not up to me. I just want to be there for my friend, thank you very much. So back off and quit making them feel like they are wrong for being friends with me. Friends, quit letting them have their way. You let us worry about what is right for us not everyone else. You mean more to me and would be there for me when most of them would be laughing behind my back. Family ties are the ties that bind, just be careful what they bind you to.