Saturday, December 29, 2007
I've also found something very interesting. If I do my walking and exercise I am much less likely to eat when I shouldn't. I guess its that I don't want to waste all that effort.
I did pretty well with Christmas dinner at mom's too. I ate every thing that I wanted; I just didn't eat as much of it. I only had one of her homemade rolls and believe it or not only one piece of her impossible pumpkin pie.
As of last night we attended the last party for awhile so now maybe I can get serious about this thing. I realize that I have to be realistic and that there are times that you can't avoid eating things you shouldn't but those times can be few and far between. I don't intend on completely depriving myself either, I think that would only make things worse but again the treats can be few and far between. So wish me luck.
Friday, December 21, 2007
Common Sense- I need exercise, there is no doubt about that. I will not walk around here alone and it is really hard to find the time to walk with someone else everyday, so we bought a treadmill.
Not so Clear- How fast should I walk? How far should I walk? How often should I walk? I have researched this and researched it and I still can't find a definite answer, so I am doing what I am comfortable with and that's that!! I know for a fact that something has to be better for me than nothing.
Common Sense- Sugar is not good for you.
Not so Clear- What all contains sugar? How much is okay? It is all so unclear. I have figured a lot of this out from research though. Let me just say first of all that there are very few things out there that don't contain sugar of some kind, it is ridiculous. From what I have read though if you want to completely free your body of the craving for sugar you need to go 2 weeks without it. I can do that; I really can….just not right now. I am avoiding all sugar here at home but its Christmas time and how do you go somewhere else and not eat sugar, it's impossible. And I will not miss my mom's cooking on Christmas Day. So for now I am doing my best to stay away from it. After the holidays, I'm kicking it for good. Then from there we will decide what kind of sugar is okay and in what amount.
Now a side note: I bought a scale when I went to the store the other day and from the highest I weighed at the doctors office (after all of the steroids) until this morning I have lost around 14 lbs. I know the scales can be different and I didn't have my shoes on, so I am guessing about 10 lbs. I already feel so much better though and I can tell a huge difference. A lot of it was swelling and water retention and to be rid of all of that is a great feeling all on its own.
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
My big concern though is with my health. While I was sick over the last few months it really made me realize that all I am doing is hurting myself. The doctor did a complete work-up on me because of all the different things that went wrong while they were treating me for the pneumonia and almost everything was good. Almost that is because even though my cholesterol was perfect and everything else was right on target my triglycerides were through the roof. She gave me a list of things to avoid and things to eat while at the same time saying that she had never seen results quite like that. That's comforting!!!
So I started researching and found that the list of fats she gave me to avoid probably wouldn't make a bit of difference. Sugar was my culprit!! Now if you know me at all, you know about my love affair with Coke and although I had pretty much given it up already I had just moved on to something just as sugary but without the caffeine. I continued to research and guess what (this was very painful to me) the biggest source of sugar in our "diets" is CARBS!!! Okay you can have my pop and my junk but my bread, that's just not fair. I am doing it though or at least trying.
I've been at this for almost 2 weeks and have debated whether or not to post about it on here but this is the conclusion I have come to. Yes there is a chance that I may fail and everyone will know it but if I don't hold myself accountable in anyway to anyone then I have no extra motivation to keep me going when I could care less if I'm really healthy or not. So here it goes!! I'm going to start posting about how I'm doing and what I'm doing to get there. If you don't want to know, that's fine. If you just want to be nosy, that's fine. I would really appreciate any feedback or encouragement though. I promise to try to keep you updated regularly and to do my best to be healthy.
Tuesday, December 18, 2007
Saturday, November 17, 2007
SYDNEY (AFP) - Santas in Australia's largest city have been told not to use Father Christmas's traditional "ho ho ho" greeting because it may be offensive to women, it was reported Thursday. Sydney's Santa Clauses have instead been instructed to say "ha ha ha" instead, the Daily Telegraph reported.
Can I just say "WHAT?". Is that not outrageous? Come on, if you get offended by the use of that maybe you deserve to be offended. Is it going to come to the point where we have to review everything that we say? I agree that there are words that can be extremely offensive if directed to a specific person or group but are we all so dumb that we can't discern a person's intent when they are saying something. Unless you are a huge HO why would you assume that a Santa was being insulting towards you when he says "Ho, Ho, Ho". Do you see where we are headed with this? It isn't pretty and it's only going to get worse.
Thursday, September 6, 2007
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Thursday, August 16, 2007
shall enter into thy kingdom of heaven
but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in Heaven.
If you are a Christian and you want to know why the world thinks so little of you just watch this season of Big Brother and it will be clear. I have to say that these people do not represent the Christianity that I believe in or live daily. If this is what people see everyday it is no wonder that they think we are a joke.
Yes, we are not perfect, we all make mistakes, and after all we are all human. You can't live however you want, say what ever you want or do what ever you want though. If you go in to something with the thought in your head that its ok God will forgive me, you are walking a very fine line. That is a willful sin and God doesn't take that lightly and he may not continue to tolerate it.
Christians are no better than anyone else, the only thing that sets you apart is God's forgiveness. We are all as filthy rags unless we have accepted that forgiveness and are doing our best to live up to that honor. You can't guilt someone because they don't agree with your beliefs and you can't cram your religion down their throats. You have to let them see that Belief in your life. You definitely won't accomplish much by cussing them when they catch you up in your faults.
Most importantly you can't use God as an excuse for your bad choices. Just because you thought you were doing what God wanted does not mean that you were right. If you commit to doing something or helping someone and it turns out it was the wrong decision or they weren't what you thought then you stand up and admit you were wrong and do what is right. You don't say I have to do it because I promised I would, you do what is right and then God will help you with the fall-out.
Like I said no one is perfect, we all mess up at times but that's when you ask for forgiveness- from both God and anyone you hurt. Then you move on!!! I just hope that anyone that reads this can take this point away with them - Not everyone that saith unto me Lord, Lord shall enter into thy kingdom of heaven but he that doeth the will of my Father which is in Heaven. Mt.7:21
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
I am realizing how spoiled I am. I miss my computer so very much. I had no idea how much I used the computer-how much we all used it. We don't sit on it for long periods of time so it never seemed like much. Music, pictures, recipes and looking up every little thing we want to know. We can't charge our Ipods and we have nothing to do with the pictures that we take. I can't make my favorite soup and I can't pay a lot of my bills that were set up electronically. Mike can't check his Raymond points daily or keep up with his 401K and the list goes on and on. We depend on it for so many things. How will we make it? Hopefully my laptop doesn't take long to get here.
Today I had to break down and go to the Library and pay my bills. I was worried about putting any information in there but it all worked out. Most of them had all of the information saved in my profile and the ones that didn't I got numbers to call and pay them. So no bank account information had to be put in. The wait for my laptop is killing me- I shouldn't have been so picky!!
As if not having a computer weren't enough now we are also without a phone (once again some lovely person stole the lines). So we are completely cut off from the outside world. I'm not sure how people use to live like this, with no connection to other people, it could drive you crazy.
Yet another concession. We had to buy a charger for our Ipods. We couldn't make it another day without them (yeah right). The gadget is cool but it's just another thing that the computer could be doing. It will be one less thing to bog the computer down when we do get it – Ipods will only need to be connected to change or add content, Hooray!! I have to find a positive somewhere so just ignore me, Please!!
I need a computer now!! I have had one crappy day and I know I'm not going to sleep anytime soon. All I have to do is thank about my crappy day and that is not a good thing. Some things are better left unthought-of. Guess it's time to try books and video games. How long must I suffer? (Insert violin music here)
Shipping date on laptop postponed but if I cancel and reorder it may take even longer plus I can no longer get exactly the same thing. So I wait!!! For now I'm writing, I forgot how much I liked it, and reading a little and for those late nights when I can't sleep I am wearing out the video games!!
I can't even check the daggone movie times. What Is my world coming to?
It's officially ridiculous. I can't get the laptop I want right now because they are severely back ordered, so they had to cancel my order and I ordered a desktop. I have actually gotten use to not having one, not that I want to stay without one. The only time it really sucks is on my sleepless nights. I figure as long as I'm up and going by the time the kids go back to school I will be good. I'm reading even more and that's great – I need to work my brain, I'm sure.
It should be here anytime and I'm so excited. I wish I had given up on the laptop the first time they changed the ship date. The desktop shipped the next day, again that's what I get for trying to get what I want. I did go ahead and go wireless though. I can use it for so much more than just the laptop (cable phone, Play station, Nintendo DS's) and it will be ready when I finally get the laptop. After all I have been so deprived that I have to ease the pain somehow. So Internet overload it is!!!!!
Still didn't come today. I know they said tomorrow but I was so hoping it would be earlier. It did hit me today how much work getting everything set up and fixed is going to be. The computer, the wireless system, reading my old hard drive, getting all of the pictures, music and data onto the new one, it is going to be a long process. I'm so excited to get to do it all though, I'm such a geek I know. Reading the old hard drive with the new device I bought is really going to be cool. Technology so rocks!!!!
Well it's all here and partially set up so far. I thought I would be setting here non-stop today but I found it hard to get anything done because I had other things I wanted to do. Now it's late and I have nothing else to do so I am finally getting caught up on some things. I'm glad to have all of the information at my fingertips again.
Wednesday, August 8, 2007
It's amazing how time gets away from you. I spent so many years pregnant and having kids and then the last 5 years just trying to enjoy them and guide them. Now we are hitting a whole new stage and that genuinely scares me. Learning to be a mom to babies at the age of 18 was tough but I just really grew up with them. Now I have to learn to be a mom to teenagers and I do believe that is going to be much harder. I've learned that a parent's main concern cannot be whether or not their kids like them. That gets you into big trouble. As they get older though that gets harder because they go from just thinking your mean for a few minutes to downright hating you for days. I just have to keep reminding myself that it will pay off in the future and that as long as I am there for them and do my best that they will remember that!! So ready or not future-here we come.
Friday, July 20, 2007
What is wrong with people? They put all of their time and energy into trying to find a way out of working. Is that not work itself? Would it not be easier to just get a job like the rest of the world? It just doesn't make since to me to work so hard at not working. Not to mention that they are risking jail at the same time. This is just absolutely insane to me. How do they convince themselves that this is normal or even remotely smart? Do me a favor guys just go to work and give the rest of us a break. Preferably before you end up costing someone more than just a little inconvenience because they don't have a phone.
Saturday, July 7, 2007
I am not and will never claim to be a perfect person (I am quite far from it actually) but I do try. Try to improve, try to forgive and always try to be what I need to be to set an example for my kids. No I'm not a cookie cutter Christian and I'm sure there are many people that look at me and say "If she's going to Heaven so am I" but I promise I'm trying to make that harder for you to do.
P.S. Kelly if you're checking out "myspace" Thank You again and I hope you approve!! And I do keep a close eye on my kids "spaces" and what they are doing too.
Friday, June 29, 2007
The Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time; Enjoying one moment at a time; Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace; Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is, not as I would have it; Trusting that He will make all things right if I surrender to His Will;That I may be reasonably happy in this life and supremely happy with Him Forever in the next.Amen.
"Heaven Help Me"
I'm no stranger to temptation
I have found some comfort there
But it only leaves me with questions
Never answers, only prayers
I've been as high as angels fly and I've fallen straight to hell
Heaven help me
Heaven help me
'Cause I can't help myself
I have wounded those who love me
And refused to take the blame
I have hidden all my demons
But I cannot hide my shame
I've forgotten who I am
But I know you know me well
Heaven help me
Heaven help me
'Cause I can't help myself
Give me wisdom, give me strength
Give me faith above all else
Heaven help me
Heaven help me
'Cause I can't help myself
Heaven help me
Heaven help me
'Cause I can't help myself
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
There is absolutely nothing that I can do to ensure that anyone in this world will like me or be pleased with me but God on the other hand has made that simple. He loves me NO MATTER what and all I must do to keep him pleased with me is try my best to stay in His will for my life. Serve people and they will tolerate you and maybe even be pleased for the time being but it will not make them truly love you. There is nothing I can do besides be myself and treat people in the way that God would have me to. If that leaves me alone in this world then God has a reason for that.
I have never been a very likeable person, not someone that most people can get close to and I know that it is something about me although I'm not sure what. Maybe if I give in to God he can change that too. So time to get rid of self and figure out what God wants from my life. Time for a BRAND NEW ME!!!!
Saturday, June 23, 2007
I know your going to spew the whole Christians have to love line again and to that I say….. Yes we do but we don't have to love your ways!!! We are to mark those who cause divisions and stay away from them (read your bible)! I do believe I would call this causing a division and we all know that it's not the first one. We love you, you are family and you are one of God's creations but you are not someone that we can allow to continue to poison our lives. Although you seem to continue to be able to do that even from a distance.
Now I am truly sorry if I offended anyone with this, there is a history that goes with it that some know and some don't and I am truly hurt and disappointed that grownups can't leave kids out of their disputes. I for one would never drag kids into a dispute that I had with anyone, it seems to me the sensible thing to do. But maybe I'm just crazy that way.
Thursday, June 14, 2007
When does Mom get a break? Our lives are so busy anymore that it seems there is no time left to just have fun. When we were young that was what the summer was for but now that is even pretty much gone. Baseball won't be over until tomorrow, Audrey started Summer Volleyball practices yesterday and Matthew brought home a huge pack of summer work (so that he doesn't forget what he learned in preschool before he gets to Kindergarten). Don't get me wrong all of these things are great and they do help the kids out but where did Summer Vacation go? Do we put too much pressure on our kids? Do they ever get a chance to just be kids? Then we wonder why kids grow up so fast now. I know, I know. I'm going to get a lot of complaints about this one but its true. We want them to be able to do all the things their friends do and we want them to be good at everything and we want them to have a great future but at what cost. Our retirement age is so high already now and you know it will be higher by the time they get there (if they have one at all) so why not let them just have a childhood and worry about all of these things in the future.
I can't change the world and I know if I want my kids to do well at the things that they love that they need any edge they can get but it just seems to me that we learned so much about life from just hanging out during the summers. Is there a lesson that they are missing? Will they know how to just have fun with their families when they have them? Do they know that Mom loves them just because she does, even if they aren't doing something "spectacular"? Do they realize that Mom can just chill and be fun at times too? We have to spend so much time making sure that they do what they need to do and that they get to where they need to go that I think just maybe they are missing out on a few valuable lessons!!
Update: Audrey went for her check up for her knee and they think that it is going to heal itself. It is doing really good and she is starting to build it back up slowly now after NO use for 6 wks. Don't have to go back for a year unless it gets bad again. Praise the Lord!!!
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Saturday, April 21, 2007
On to other things….Apparently we had a bear last night, the first sighting of the season. He tried his best to get inside the Blazer, not sure why though because it has been setting there for months in need of being fixed (now that's a whole other story). The picture is not great; if you actually see it you can see where he pushed his nose up against the glass.
A short update on the kittens too. They are getting so big and are all over the place. Most of them are using the litter box already and a few are starting to try to eat. It's going to be hard to get rid of any of them let along all of them. Mike says though (and anyone who knows us well will know what a big deal this is) that HE is getting ME a dog. I am by heart a dog person, I love them and would love to have one now that all the kids will be in school but……. I CANNOT house train a dog. I have tried so many times and it never works for me. My guess would be that it is my laziness but I'm hoping that if he gets the dog for me that I will try a little harder. We'll see I guess, if he even gets it lol.
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
For those of you who know me well this part will be redundant but oh well. Sorry about that.
Audrey had a severe infection in her leg about a year and a half ago. It was called cellulitis (which is a fancy word for an infection just underneath the skin surface) and turned out to be a staff infection. She was in the hospital for 3 days, couldn't walk for a few weeks and was on crutches for a little over a month. You would have had to see the leg to understand how bad it was; it ended up being about 3 times its normal size. They finally had to make an incision and drain the leg to get it to heal and she ended up having to have the roots of her big toenail cut out on that foot to clear up the infection there. She has had trouble with the knee on that leg ever since but the swelling and pain would come and go. Getting her to the doctor while it was actually swollen and hurting was very difficult. It took about a year but I finally managed to get him to see that there was a problem. He did x-rays and they came back with a report of being fine. So he had her wear a brace for a while and it has helped but as soon as she doesn't wear it we are back to square one.
Now to the present, He decided there was nothing else he could do so he referred her to a specialist. We go in, he glances at the x-rays, asks a few questions, checks her knee out a little and says he really doesn't see anything. I think Oh Great!!! So I just start talking and telling him every little thing I can think of about how it affects her, what hurts her and what doesn't and apparently he had a "light bulb" moment. He started checking her knee in a different way and looking for certain things and then went to actually look at the x-rays. Sure enough there it is big as day, how the person that read them didn't see it the doctor can't seem to fathom. She has a "pothole" of cartilage gone on the back side of her knee cap. Now whether it is from the infection or she injured it and didn't know it or it is going to be some type of disorder she has we do not know and may never know.
She goes for an MRI Friday to see just how bad it really is and we will go from there with her treatment but there is a possibility that she will have to have surgery. It has taken me a week to be able to set down and write about it because it upsets me to think about it. She is still young enough that it may be able to heal itself but we will have to see. She is really anxious about the MRI and will be truly crushed if she can not play volleyball when the season starts next year. I am trusting in God that everything will be okay though and even if she has to have surgery and can't do the things that she loves I know that God has a reason for it. Everyone just keep her in your thoughts and prayers.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Sunday, March 11, 2007
I would not be comfortable trying to explain how great a person he was because I would not want to diminish what he meant to all of those that he was so close to. I cannot know how much he meant to them but I can imagine and I feel that they are the ones that have the right to talk about what a great man he was. I can however say that from the minute you met Jesse you knew that God was the most important thing in his life. I know that the class that he was part of and which held by-far the closest place in his heart is in my prayers, as they are in the prayers of everyone at the church. This church is an amazing FAMILY to be a part of.