Can I figure this out?

Not a whole lot of effort went into that weight loss. I have to figure out how to find a balance with my weight loss desires. I am either all in or all out and that's not working well for me. There has to be an in between somewhere. I know I can't lose weight as fast as I did with a balance of the two but I can still lose weight. If I can't exercise everyday then I get discouraged and don't do it at all. If I eat bad one day then the next day I have given up. I have to learn to give myself a break when I'm not doing it perfect. Do I really expect to go the rest of my life without drinking another Coke? Can I realistically exercise everyday? There has to be an in between. There has to. I'm determined to find it. I'm going to find it. It may take me the rest of my life but I will not quit. I'd rather it be sooner and not later because I feel like time is running out. I feel like there is a line in the sand and that I have until I reach that line before it will be too late and I will be completely stuck in my ways. I know that's not true, that it's all in my head but I feel a sense of desperation. As I typed those last few sentences I realized something. That feeling of desperation may be my whole problem. If I would truly give myself the rest of my life to figure it out and erase that line in the sand it would make this so much easier. No matter what happens this is going to be a lifetime problem for me. If I woke up skinny tomorrow I wouldn't stay that way for long if I still didn't have that balance. So I will continue my quest. Any and all advice will be appreciated. 

Am I Thinner Yet?

Between January and May I lost 30 lbs. Then the kids got out for summer break. I can't keep it up while they are off. I can't walk in the mornings like I do when they are in school and I absolutely can't eat right when they are home all day long.  I managed to do pretty good though and only gained a couple of pounds over the summer. As soon as they started back to school I started back to my routine of walking and exercising but I couldn't get my eating back under control but I managed to lose the few pounds I had gained. Then I got Mono and now I'm back up 10 pounds. I need to get myself started back in at least a small way. So today I went for a walk, only about half of what I was doing but it felt pretty good. Until now. I feel like my legs are going to fall off.

Can I try on your pants?

I have a new obsession in my struggle with my weight. I find myself really wanting to try on your pants. I know how crazy it sounds but I have a feeling that I am not alone in this. When I see someone close to my size I find myself thinking "Am I bigger or smaller than you?" Then it comes, the thought that man I would love to try on that outfit you have on and see how it fits me. I'm not proud of it but that is how my mind is working at the moment. I have never had a realistic view of my size and for many years I didn't even realize that. Now that I truly know and understand that, it leaves me struggling to find a realistic view. So sometimes I would love to just try on your pants and see how my size truly compares to yours. Sorry!!

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218

LW-191.6

CW-192

GW-160



Got in a little exercise but not much. I'm trying to get my house back in order after neglecting it so poorly while I was down for the count. I hope to get back to full force this week though.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

The last few weeks have been well...... unbearable. That is the only way I know to describe it. I am feeling pretty good now though and getting back to my normal self. I've been wanting to move this "regular" post off of Saturdays anyway so I figured this was a good time to do it. As I said and as you have gathered from the complaining I'm sure, I have had a hard time lately. The good news is that I have actually lost weight.

SW-218
LW-Not sure
CW-191.6
GW-160

The last weight I had posted on here was different from the last weight that was stored on the WiiFit and I had been on it since the last time I had post on here so I am just going to start from what I know. Since the last time I had been on the WiiFit I had lost 3.7 pounds. I was quite impressed. I knew I had lost a little, that's what going days without eating much does but I didn't think it would be that much. Especially since I haven't been able to exercise. Every step I took shot pain through my mouth so actual exercise was out of the question. I am starting fresh today though. I have to get back into this, full force.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
LW-194.6
CW-193.7
GW-160

Finally down a little. It is getting easier to get the exercise in. Now I just need to get the eating completely under control. I'm going to do the first 2 week phase of South Beach starting Monday. I have been doing better gradually but that is the best thing I have ever tried for getting the junk eating out of my system.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
LW-192.6
CW-194.6
GW-160

This makes it almost exactly 10 lbs. I've gained. Honestly I don't know why I gained this week. I know that sometimes once you start down the right path it takes it awhile to show up. I exercised a lot this week and ate better but still not great. I'm going to cut out any strength training until I start losing again and I am giving up the Soda this week. That is my biggest weakness and it seems to make the eating worse too. Hopefully next week the work I did this week will show up. I joined the challenge at In-Shape Brag Blog and have done well this week for it. I will have my 15 miles I need for this week.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
LW-190.1
CW-192.6
GW-160

That makes a total of 8 pounds gained this summer. I have done very well the last few days though. I have been getting my exercise in and am getting my eating back on track. It's not perfect but I'm getting there. I've accepted a challenge that starts on Sept.1 on the In-Shape Brag Blog and I'm really looking forward to it. Things like this always seem to make it easier to stay on track (maybe I need one for next summer haha). I'm planning on trying some different things too, I will let you know about them. Just trying to keep it interesting.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

No numbers. I know, I know. Stop screaming at me. We have been really busy, I haven't had time to breath. Have to have Jo somewhere by 8 this morning and then return to the normal chaos so I don't have time to get on the WiiFit this morning. However on an up note. The kids start school Tuesday, I should be able to get back to a routine. I wish I was more disciplined and could get up early every morning and exercise but when I don't have to get up, my body just won't let me. I promise better things starting next week. I'm going to start trying different things too, health wise, I mean. So if anyone has any suggestions, anything you would like for me to try or at least check in to, let me know. I'm up for just about anything. That's how you find what works for you.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
LW-190.3
CW-190.1
GW-160

To be redundant, I am hanging in there. Waiting for my moment to shine. I promise this will get more interesting once the kids are back in school. For this little time I needed to concentrate on them though.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
LW-191
CW-190.3
GW-160

Figured out how to tell the exact weight on the WiiFit. It said I was down 0.9 this week. Just 2 more weeks till the kids are back in school and I'm still holding at around 5 lbs. gained for the summer. Not too much harm done. As long as I get back into it once they are gone.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
LW-188.2
CW-191(New WiiFit weight, I weigh the same on my scale 188.3)
GW-160

I exercised this week. More than I have in a long time. I feel better but it didn't help much with the weight. I'm being patient and biding my time till the kids go back to school.
On a different note - We got a WiiFit this week. I'm adjusting my CW to match what it now says. It is a little more than the scale was weighing me at but that's alright. I'm just going to start from there for next week. I must say, so far, I love the WiiFit. No, it's not that great on the cardiovasular side but I think it is going to be great for toning and strengthening. I've always wanted to learn some Yoga and it seems to be really good on that front. (I'll let you know what I think of it after I've used it a little more.)It is a little depressing though. It labeled me as obese and keeps telling me how unbalanced, unflexible and unfit I am. I think shutting it up will give me good motivation though.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218

LW-188

CW-188.2

GW-160

Still hovering around the same. I'm thinking if I can just make it through the summer without gaining much that it will be easier once the kids are back in school.  I do pretty good with my eating but it is harder when they are around all day and need things to snack on and eat. I can't make myself get out of bed early when I don't have to - I have tried and then I feel guilty if I take time during the day to exercise. So that should all get better once they are back to school and I have to get up. I'm thinking maybe we should start going for a family walk/bike ride every evening. I may try that this week.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
CW-188
LW-189.1
GW-160

A step in the right direction. I'm doing better, taking baby steps to get back to where I need to be.  I have cut way back on the pop and will be cutting it out completely next week. I got a little exercise and will increase it next week. I realized I can't just jump back in right where I left off, at least not where exercise is concerned.  Every little bit counts. I really thought it would be so much easier in the summer, boy was I wrong. If I can just keep from ballooning up any more before they go back to school, I may survive it.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
CW-189.1
LW-187.2
GW-160



Alright everything is over. No more vacations, no more bible school, no more excuses. It's time to get serious. I'm getting back to a regular schedule, I am going to get out of bed at a decent hour, I am going to exercise, I promise - not you but myself.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
CW-187.2
LW-186
GW-160

I cannot wait until Vacation and all of these picnics and eating out are over. Oh don't get me wrong I'm enjoying them greatly but it's not good for a woman's figure. 'Nough said!!

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
CW-186
LW-184.8
GW-160

It's simple if you eat more calories than you burn in a day then you can't lose weight. I had moved away from the habit of keeping track of what I was eating and this has been my downfall (or is there such a thing as an upfall haha). I've kept track the last couple of days and it isn't pretty. I haven't been doing that bad but all of those little habits are slipping back in. It's time to cut myself off and straighten myself up. Hopefully now that I know exactly where I am going wrong I can talk myself out of it. I need to keep that motivational factor of being able to be here for my kids futures in mind. I need to set a good example for them.

P.S. I don't think there is such a thing as an upfall - my spell check doesn't like that word.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
CW-184.8
LW-186.2
GW-160

Finally down a little bit, let's see if it sticks. I still haven't kicked my butt into gear and I know that if I did the weight would probably be coming off quickly. I don't know what to tell you, I just can't seem to motivate myself. Any suggestions?

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
CW-186.2
LW-186
GW-160

I believe I am officially in a stall. I did really good this week as far as eating but I'm still not getting my exercise in. I can't seem to get a routine worked out with the kids home. I'm not one of those woman that can make their selves get up at 5 in the morning when I don't have to. I keep thinking I'll do it in the evenings but by the time I get there (with all of the kids home) I am exhausted. I don't have little kids though, so I could walk anytime I wanted. I'm just going to have to find a time that works for me. I need to walk after I get up and eat just like I was before, it just wouldn't be as early in the day. One problem with that though. I'm very self-conscious and if I do it then Dear One will generally be home from work and laying there staring at me and I find that hard to deal with. I know that sounds silly to most of you but in my mind it makes sense. Of course it would probably be good self-esteem exercise too. I will have to try it this week.

One day, One choice, One pound at a time

SW-218
CW-186
LW-185.2
GW-160

Ok. Ok. I know. Honestly I can't seem to get past this point. I bounce down and back up but I just can't get below 185. I thought I was going to do it this week but the cards were stacked against me. I gained -no lie- 5 lbs. while we were in Tennessee. I lost all of it and on Thursday I actually saw 184 on the scale but it was short lived. Along came TOM and out the door that went. I will break through this week though. I promise you. Sometimes it is so easy to do this and sometimes it seems impossible. I'm trying so hard to make our lives healthy but it is not an easy task in this world. I know that it can't all happen overnight and that there are many facets to it but I want to feel like I am passing something good onto my kids for their future. That's why (as you know if you've been reading) I wanted to do this a healthy and smart way and not just by taking some pills or starving myself. As my title states though, I can't be perfect and healthy all the time. Each day brings a new struggle and new choices to be made and many times the weight just creeps off but at least I'm no longer headed in the wrong direction.