Change is hard

I didn't do excellent on my For Just One Week but I did decent. I missed 3 days of walking, I know horrible but 2 of them were because I fell on the ice here and really wasn't moving much. Even though I am late posting I did start my For Just One Week things for this week and am doing better this week. My goals for this week are to read my Bible everyday and to drink no more than 1 soda a day. The 30 days to a New Habit is going to be harder because I am taking this seriously and every time I miss a day I'm starting over. So although I walked Monday I didn't walk Tuesday so today it starts over. I know that eventually I will get to that 30 days straight and that by then hopefully I will have a new habit. Both of the goals from this week will become 30 day things too but then after that my For Just One Week goals are going to become a little more light-hearted. Not that I may not try to hang on to some of them and make them into habits but I don't want to overload my plate at this point.

I have a plan

I've been thinking about this a lot and I have come up with a plan. I may not always make it through it perfectly but at least it will be progress. It started with a thought about something we had discussed in our Sunday School class, the fact that it takes 30 days to make or break a habit. So that is going to be one of the things that I am doing. Since these are things that I want to change permanently I don't want to take on too many of them at once so I also found something else I'm very interested in. On the blog My Ice Cream Diary she has started a thing she calls For Just One Week. You picked something and do it everyday for just one week. This is how I am going to start out. My first few Just One Weeks will turn into 30 days to a New Habit also. The only way for me to make real changes is going to be through a gradual process. She is posting hers on Saturdays and I may start trying to do that but I'm going to start each new thing on Mondays. So with no further ado my first goal is to..... Walk, at least 30 minutes everyday. Hopefully a lot of days I will walk longer than the 30 minutes but 30 minutes of exercise everyday is better than no exercise everyday. I will let you know how this went next week and this will be my first 30 days to a New Habit goal.

Sometimes..... Life gets in the way.

I've been gone for awhile.... again. I know. Sometimes though life really does get in the way of the things that we love to do. Sometimes it bogs us down and drowns our everyday joy. Sometimes we let it become a burden rather than a pleasure. With 4 kids there are so many things that I have to deal with on a daily basis that it is easy to let myself slide. I love writing and this blog is the best way I have had of doing that for a long time. I had started devoting a little too much time to it and too little time to my family. So I took the holidays off and spent the time with them but now I seem to have lost myself once again in their world. I'm working to find a balance between the two sides of my life and its not easy. I want to be the mother I need to be but I find that if I'm not careful I lose myself in that process and then what kind of a mother am I being. I am not a perfect person, there are so many things about myself that I struggle with, there are so many things that I would like to change and I feel that I have to start working on those sooner rather than later. When I think about all of the things that I need or want to do it often turns into a vicious cycle for me. I can think of so many things that it overwhelms, then I start to get depressed and that leads to me doing even less which of course then adds more things that I need or want to do. I'm going to find a way to change, a way that isn't overwhelming, a way that I can be the person I want to be. I may not post as regularly as I was but I will be posting again and you may want to stick around and see what I come up with. Hopefully it will be good and it will work.